aku hanya manusia

being a doctor in this era is a great challenge.
we have such a big competitor --> Mr. Google Who Knows It All had been a reference for everyone.
it is OK if my patients learn about family planning from Mr Who Knows It All.
sometimes i asked them, have you ever heard of family planning?.... or have you ever heard of eclampsia?
you will be amazed on how people never heard of family planning or how much they had learn via Google.
OK, that is awesome, actually.
but when they start to diagnose themselves with a weird diagnosis that didn't even exist in Malaysia, or when they prefer to meet bomoh instead of me, i am hurt.

hello, what is the use for me to study for five years and then learn from my specialist if all of you can easily be ME?

there is one girl who proudly claims that she knows more than doctors by just referring to the Internet.

KAU KALAU BELAJAR AGAMA DARI BUKU ATAU INTERNET TANPA BELAJAR DARI KELAS AGAMA, BOLEH SESAT TAK???

aku pun boleh je belajar macam mana nak pasang almari atau pasang lampu dari internet. tapi tak bermakna aku 'expert' dalam bidang tu. 

nak cakap tu fikir dulu boleh tak? kan aku dah marah ni... *cekak pinggang*

i hate stupid arrogant people. orang bodoh sombong memang menyakitkan hati.

ada satu insiden lain, dimana seorang ibu mengandung yang menghidap preeklampsia cakap dengan aku 'dokter, saya dah sihat. saya nak balik' dengan muka menyampah dan pandang ke arah berlawanan dengan aku. aku membelek 'observation chart' yang penuh dengan tulisan merah yang menandakan tekanan darah masih tinggi dan belum stabil
wanita bertudung labuh itu berkeras mahu pulang walaupun pelbagai nasihat aku berikan kepada beliau. tapi dia masih berkeras dan tak sudi pandang muka aku langsung.
HOW RUDE!!!
"encik, kalau bawa isteri encik balik, isteri encik ada risiko kena sawan yang boleh membahayakan nyawa. tekanan darah tinggi dan ada protein dalam urine berisiko untuk dapat sawan semasa mengandung. ada orang boleh meninggal disebabkan sawan tu" kataku kepada suami pesakit.
lelaki berjubah dan berserban itu marah kepadaku "Dokter, kuasa hidup mati bukan di tangan dokter. itu semua ketentuan ALLAH"
"saya bukan nak cakap saya ni TUHAN tapi, saya cakap isteri encik sekarang ni belum sihat sepenuhnya. tekanan darah masih tinggi. ada risiko boleh dapat sawan yang boleh menyebabkan kematian" tegasku. 
akhirnya, sebab dia nak jugak balik, pakar bagi dia AOR discharge (balik atas risiko sendiri/ at own risk)
"kalau dia tak sayang nyawa dia dan nyawa baby yang dia kandung, kenapa kita kena kisah?" kata pakar kepadaku..
"tapi semua nyawa pesakit penting, boss. takkan kita nak bagi dia balik walaupun kita tahu dia boleh dapat eklampsia bila2 je" balasku..
"kat hospital pun diaorg boleh dapat eklampsia atau baby tu boleh IUD (Intrauterine death). kita tak boleh paksa pesakit" jawab pakar.

masih banyak yang perlu aku belajar. 
masih banyak kesabaran yang perlu aku pupuk.

if i care too much, i will be hurt too.
but if i don't care, pity all of my patients.

but i am just a HUMAN.
kita hanya mampu berusaha, selebihnya terserah kepada ALLAH.

being a doctor is easier than MLM

hye.
i have been neglected my blog for quite some time.
so much had changed in my life.
i am finally in Obstetric and Gynecology department!
yeay! \(^.^)/

i am definitely in the "I LOVE MY JOB" mode right now.

i enjoy my work.
delivering babies, doing vacuum assisted delivery, stitching perineum, doing Caesarean section, seeing gynae cases (this is a bit difficult but i am still learning).
there's so much things to learn! seriously.
i need to refresh again what i had learnt 3 years ago (last time i was in O&G was in 2nd posting of housemanship).
believe me, it wasn't easy. hopefully i am able to perform my duty well. AMIN.

anyway, i have a piece of thought that i want to share with you today.
I THINK THAT BEING A DOCTOR IS MUCH SIMPLER THAN TO SUCCEED IN MULTILEVEL MARKETING (MLM)*

so why I had suddenly make such comparison?
i had few friends who claim that they are still a government hospital doctor while all they do is only 'lepaking' and 'fishing' people to join their MLM.
THAT IS OUTRAGEOUS!
how dare you write the department and hospital name below your name when you don't even work as a doctor anymore?
p.s. if you lie, how can you gain a HALAL money?

actually, i had joined one type of MLM previously, which caused me to lost a lot of money. truthfully, i am not the type who can make a 'stone face' and disturb anyone and find more people to join.
seriously it is not for me!
i salute to those who can do that. you definitely had a lot of confident!
from some researches that i had done, my conclusion is: to succeed in MLM you need a lot of TIME.
However, i'd rather spend my time reading novels, playing games, and watch series.
and i usually i spent my postcall day with sleeping (working 36 hours non stop while oncall is tiring, OK)

there was one time, a teacher approached me.
first, we hang out at McDonald, just chatting up. then, she introduced me to her friends.
and then she invited me for some events. they claim that they all learn how to gain money easily.
"I don't know how to sell things. but i can easily gain money by just having fun while singing at karaoke"
it was nice to have a lot of friends (i am not sure they are true friends or just superficial ones).
and then when they found out that i had joined another MLM, i was banned from their group.
i thought she was sincere. i really like to be her friend.

in the end, i make a conclusion that being a doctor is easier.
i got books to find factual answers, i got specialist and seniors to teach me, i enjoy my work and i did not need to 'layer up my face' or lie to my patients.

so to all future doctors, not all doctors hate their job.
I've had enough with these negative people who said our job is degrading and stressful.
every job had their own obstacles.
please find something to 'defuse' your stress.
for example, when i am too tired, i look at those cute newborn babies and disturb them a bit (opps). hihi.

to those who succeed in MLM, i think you guys are amazing. you put so much effort and you can be rich in the blink of an eye. i hope the money that you get is not 'easy come, easy go'. do invest in some business for the sake of your family. you can't be doing that job for the rest of your life, right? or am i wrong? hmmm....

anyway, i am comfortable doing what i know and i think i am good at. i am definitely doing my job till i 'pencen'. insyaALLAH.


*this is my personal opinion. please don't take it as general perception. thank you.