nobody's perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing, yeah, 

I talk too much  

Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up  

It's like I need to tell someone, anyone who'll listen  

And that's where I seem to fuck up
Yeah, I forget about the consequences  

For a minute there I lose my senses  

And in the heat of the moment my mouth starts going 

The words start flowing, oh
But I never meant to hurt you  

I know it's time that I learned to 

Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved  

This is a lesson learned
I hate that I let you down  

And I feel so bad about it  

I guess karma comes back around  

'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah
And I hate that I made you think 

That the trust we had is broken  

Don't tell me you can't forgive me  

'Cause nobody's perfect  

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect, no

 
If I could turn back the hands of time  

I swear I never would've crossed that line  

I should of kept it between us  

But, no, I went and told the whole world how I feel and oh
So I sit and I realize  

With these tears falling from my eyes  

I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever 

I promise that I'm gonna try

 
But I never meant to hurt you 

I know it's time that I learned to   

Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved  

This is a lesson learned
I hate that I let you down  

And I feel so bad about it 

I guess karma comes back around 

'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

 
And I hate that I made you think 

That the trust we had is broken  

So don't tell me you can't forgive me 

'Cause nobody's perfect 

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect

 
I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool  

But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, 

oh I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool  

But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, yeah

 
I hate that I let you down  

And I feel so bad about it 

I guess karma comes back around  

'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah
And I hate that I made you think  

That the trust we had is broken  

So don't tell me you can't forgive me 

'Cause nobody's perfect, no

 
I hate that I let you down  

And I feel so bad about it  

I guess karma comes back around 

'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah
And I hate that I made you think  

That the trust we had is broken  

So tell me you can forgive me 

'Cause nobody's perfect, yeah, yeah, whoa
Don't tell me, don't tell  

Don't tell me you can't forgive me  

No, no, no, no  

'Cause nobody's perfect, no

a thought of the day

Life has no smooth road for any of us; 

and in the bracing atmosphere of a high aim the very roughness stimulates the climber to steadier steps, 

till the legend, 

over steep ways to the stars, 

fulfills itself. 

W. C. Doane

wake up (dedicated to udin)

wake up! 
wake up from those eerie dreams. 
fly away from the haunting nightmare.... 
and run from the darkness, my friend.

for it give us nothing but fear.
and fear, 
may crush our empire of hope, 
destroying our mountain of prayers, 
which we had sealed with tears of emotions. 

but what is the price of love,

without the raging fire and the soothing water?

 perhaps...
this is the rain before the rainbow colored the sky.

and maybe...
we will all wake up 
and realize....
that it is just a nightmare

 

you can't leave us like this, my friend...
clinging to the memory of your smile,

hanging beneath the fading laughter of yours.

there's a big lantern for your future, 

don't you ever dare to give up!

this entry is dedicated to Fachruddin Sofwan, my colleague who had just undergo a brain surgery to remove an oligodendroglioma at his frontal brain. he had survived the surgery, but haven't recover fully after the operation (i had been informed that till now, he's in delirium state of mind). 

right now, there's nothing we can do except to pray for his recovery.

get well soon, udin!!

thank you Kiwi_Gal for these lovely pics!

vertigo

I think the vertigo that always buzzing me is killing me softly.

I hate it when my world spins around and around…

My heart ache and my soul loathe my own self.

I always seek something that I thought could take my pain away.

But in the end,

I broke my fragile heart over and over again.