my prenatal diary

 i'm not a photophobiac, 

but the darkness had planted a soothing calmness inside me.

i don't have any aerophobia, 

but the aquarium is the only place i can breath.

and i'm definitely not a somniphobiac, 

since i'm always sleeping.

i'm a mystery because nobody can see me yet they can feel my presence.

but since the world had develop so damn fast, 

some had created a camera to spy on me. 

why they can't just let me alone?

there's no reason to interrupt me.

i'm living happily in this aquarium. 

lalala~

wait a minute.

who are you?

why are you reading my diary?

go away!

shoooh shooohhhhhhhhh

week 8

this is me.... 

ok... i look like an alien. 

but u look like this when u are young too, rite?

 week 11

my thumbs taste like a lollipop. i dunno why i wanna suck it. nyum nyum

week 12 

today i gulp the water in the aquarium. wow, what a taste! i wonder why i never drink it before...  hmmm....

week 14

this aquarium is getting smaller... i've tried kicking it. 

who knows it can grow bigger.

lalala~

p.s. why did every time i move i feel some pressure on my aquarium?

 week 20

i can finally hear something.

there's a weird thumping sound that sounds like this 'lup dup lup dup'

i never know where it come from, but it makes me feels safe.

somebody said something like 'it's a girl'. 

i wonder what does that means.

week 28

being upside down is fun! i think i wanna stay like this forever, lah

 

week 32

i'm so damn sleepy.. huarghh (yawn) nite2

 

week 40

strange thing happens. this aquarium is getting smaller and smaller.

everything sounds so hectic out there. 

mummy had been shouting like she's in great pain.

i wonder who had dared to hurt her...

poor mummy....

hey...

why is this aquarium is forcing me through this creepy canal?

help!!!!!!

 

oh my. 

what a place.

it's so damn bright and so damn noisy!!!

wrapped me in a blanket, fast!!!!!

p.s. sleeping on mama's lap is the best place in the whole earth

anyway, this is the real me.

ehehehe~

source: 

http://www.epigee.org

http://www.killthenoise.net

http://www.acilveilkyardim.com

http://www.newbornbabyzone.com 

http://www.savvy-baby-gear.com

hujan yang turun

hujan....

orang tau hujan itu rahmat. 

tapi ramai mengeluh waktu hujan turun. 

apa lagi kalau hujan turun tanpa henti. 

dulu waktu musim kemarau, hujan setitik pun tak turun. 

sekarang, tiap2 hari hujan. minimum 3kali pulak tuh. 

kadang2 hujan rintik2. 

kadang2 hujan lebat. 

kadang2 hujan + angin kencang. 

ade tak hujan sedang? 

ehehe.....

sebut pasal hujan mesti fikir tido. 

sebab hujan sedap sangat tidor sambil diselimuti comforter yang tebal... 

best gila! tp kalau dah penat, mana2 pon jadi tempat tido. contohnye dalam pete2.

aku memang suke selalu tido dalam pete2. bukan ape, penat sangat lah. 

sekarang ni kat OBGYN kerja 12jam sehari... lagilah penat. waktu duty tak tido langsung. dapat duduk pun dah bersyukur sangat. 

ok, mungkin aku agak 'lebay' (berlebihan). takdelah seteruk itu. 

tapi shift terakhir aku agak 'horror'. bayangkan aku disuruh pergi Operation Theater lima kali!!! bukan untuk tengok operation, tapi untuk hantar makanan dan hantar benda2 lain! penat gila! dapat 'hadiah' kene marah lagi. dah la jalan licin sebab hujan. banyak kali aku hampir terjatuh sebab berlari2 dengan kasut yang dah haus. (sebenarnye dah dua kali aku terjatuh berdebuk gara2 kasut tuh tapi aku masih degil nak pakai sebab kasut tu sangat 'comfy'. huhu. padan muke aku)

berbalik cerita tidor tadi, (lari topik lak tadi ye), 

ade satu kes aku tertidor hampir setengah jam dalam pete2. 

tiba ada lelaki kejutkan aku "mbak, bangun. nanti kelewatan" 

(cik, bangun. nanti terlajak). 

aku yang tengah lena tido pon terbangun. 

alamak, lelaki hensem lah yang kejut aku! 

cepat2 tengok muke kat cermin pete2. 

kot2 ade air liur basi. 

fuh... nasib baik takde. 

aku tengok sekeliling. 

oh, jauh lagi... 

lps tu, dengan mamainye, aku pergi cakap 

"tidak pak. masih jauh ini".... 

bodoh gila aku. patutnye aku cakap terima kasih. 

sempat lak aku menjawab cakap jauh lagi tmpt yg aku nak pergi. 

huahuahua.....

jauh ye aku travel? hospital banyak jauh2. ade yang lima minit jalan kaki dah sampai. tapi dekat department ni banyak duty di hospital yang jauh2. satu jam naik pete2 baru sampai. sakit montot aku duduk lelame... nak melayan lagu earphone aku dah rosak. tu yang akhirnye aku layan tido je dalam pete2. dengan hujan yang turun jadi 'lullaby'... memang mantap!

p.s. kadang2 takut jugak barang kene curik mase tengah tido. tapi alhamdulillah, setakat ni aku bukan jenis yang tido mati.....

missing the missing guy

where are you? 

hrmmm. maybe you're busy packing for your trip back home.

i thought i can see you for the last time you're in Japan...
there's something i wanna tell you...
you had asked me why don't i like you anymore.
and this is why....

 '10 things i hate about you' 
edited version

original version from the movie '10 things i hate about you' 

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.   
I hate the way you drive my car, 
I hate it when you stare. 
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
And the way you read my mind.   

I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme. 
I hate the way you’re always right, 
I hate it when you lie.

i hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry 
I hate it when you’re not around, 
And the fact that you didn’t call 
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, 
Not even close…
Not even a little bit… 
Not even at all.

tears in my heart

looking outside the broken window,

my fragile heart feels so sorrow.

drops of rain should take the fire away,

but why i couldn't think the right way?

i'm lost in the maze of life, stranded in a deserted corner. 

I've always wish i could find a way out.

but alas, all i found is sadness. 

i wish i could stop the tears in my heart, just like i wipe the tears on my face.

i wish i could help my family, but all i do is just weary them out. 

this life is sickening, so excruciating, so unbearable. 

maybe i'm just too tired. or maybe i think too much. 

but the reality is there. 

the fact is the bitter truth i had to swallow. 

the problem is the real thing i had to face. 

and the hardest thing of all is that there's nothing i can do to help, 

except to pray that everything is gonna be OK.

dear ALLAH, please help us. 

please............

02.30pm, 

9 Jan 2010,

Labuang Baji Hospital.

my first baby ^.^

nak tahu satu rahsia tak???
sebelum masuk OBGYN, aku tak pernah ambik darah orang.
kesian tgk orang kene cucuk. sakit woo....
tapi sekarang aku buat jugak.
kadang2 cucuk sekali terus dapat, tapi kadang2 dua tiga kali pon tak dapat.
tak suke betul kalau macam tuh.
sakitnye kene cucuk banyak2!!!! =/


hari ni,
aku dapat peluang tolong lahirkan baby.
yeay!
(tapi ade dokter yang guide, lah.. ehehehe~)
sepatutnye dua minggu lagi baru aku boleh buat macam tu sebab aku ni baru 4 hari kat department nih.
tapi sebab ada dokter yang baik nak ajar, aku diberi peluang untuk 'tangkap' baby tuh. 
sangat2 best!
tapi paling takut mase kepala dia dah keluar. sempat jugak aku blank kejap. first time lah katakan. ehe~
seriously, sangat seronok tengok baby menangis bila dah keluar.
dan aku masih terasa nak menangis bila dengar bayi diazankan....
(dari dulu sampai sekarang, setiap kali dengar bayi diazankan, aku akan rasa satu perasaan aneh dalam hati aku... dan tibe2 rasa nak menangis....  bukan sebab sedih. bukan juga sebab gembira. entahla. tak tau macam mana nak jelaskan =p)

i feel so damn alive in this department...

and i enjoy every second of it.... ^.^

lalala~

p.s. anak sepupu aku dah lahir beberapa hari yang lalu.....
kalau nak tengok gambar dia, tengoklah kat sini
chumil sangat!!!!!!!!!