you are my drugs (ARHJ Part 69)

dear you,

do you remember,

that i always say that you are my piriton? 1

*seriously, i mean it*

it's amazing how your voice can easily lift up my weariness 

and makes me sleep like a baby.

and you know what?

you are my paracetamol too.2

it's the simplest and safest drug of all, 

yet effective to relieve my headache!

 

hmmm... can i say that you are my pethidine? 3

you make my pain go away with just a little bit injection of encouragement, 

and i adore you for that!

when my left chest hurts cuz i miss you so much, 

you take the pain away just like a sublingual GTN. 4

when stress makes the acid in my stomach increases,

you gives me lovely butterflies,5

just like how MMT syrup neutralize gastric juices.6

 

and, last but not least, you are my gengigel.

when life bits me so hard that it gives me an ulcer, 

you coat it with your warmth and love.

truthfully,

i don't think i need any drugs anymore *chuckles*

cuz i only want to prescribe you in my life...

the one and only ^^

footnotes:
1. piriton usually prescribes for flu or itchiness. but it can cause sleepiness.
2. well, who doesn't know paracetamol , right?
3. pethidine is an opioid, a very effective analgesic (pain killer). 
4. GTN = glyceryl trinitrate. the quick relieve of angina.
5. not sure whether this is a good effect or not. ehe~
6. MMT= Magnesium Tricilicate.

sometimes all we can do is to remember (ARHJ Part 68)

i look at the mirror, debating with the person in front of me.
should i message you?
should i just keep quiet?
arghhhh this is so devastating!!!
few times I've dialed your number, but none was answered.
my heart hurt so bad that i wanna take it out from my ribcage and throw it out of my window.
i know there's something wrong. but i just couldn't figure it out.
why oh why????

*if only i know that your house was full of sadness when i blame you for neglecting me*

then the shocking truth was revealed.
oh my.
i had no idea that somebody close to you leaves you so abruptly like that.

when you are in a place where no one wants to be, 

when one of the main branch in your family tree is broken,

don't let your faith ripped out from your heart.

fantasy always feed us on tale of the immortal,

but sadly none of them are real.

but fear not my love, 

cuz love will never die

hopefully ALLAH gives you and your family strength.

AMIN.

Let us pray for arwah.
May ALLAH bless his soul.
Al Fatihah.

storyboard i (ARHJ part 67)

tak tau lar cantik ke tak..uhuk! nie guna laptop edit..simple sangat..tp ni yg first punya..ade 3lg..tp tak publish pun..

writen by HJ ^-^

live LAUGH love (ARHJ part 66)

writen by HJ  ^-^

nasihat untuk medical student

"dokter, nanti saya nak jadi pakar sakit puan" ujar seorang pesakit berusia 15 tahun kepadaku.

puas aku menahan diri untuk memberi komen negatif.

"ok, kalau macam tu awak kene rajin, ok?" nasihatku.

kepada adik2 yang berminat untuk menjadi dokter, tolong (tolong sangat2) persiapkan mental dari awal.

jangan pernah memandang dokter adalah kerjaya yang glamour.

mungkin sering anda mendengar nasihat sedemikian.

sebab itu adalah hakikatnya.

kadang2 rasa kecewa melihat kawan2 dokter yang berhenti atau 'drifting' gara2 MLM (MultiLevel Marketing). 

sampai ada yang berkata kepadaku "tukang sapu sampah lagi hebat dari awak. gaji dia lagi banyak tau".

ok, bukan nak merendahkan taraf sesiapa. tapi penat aku belajar 5 tahun 6 bulan demi segulung ijazah!

dia pulak boleh suka2 nak label orang? huh!

kawan2, tolong lah betulkan niat --> "aku jadi dokter bukan untuk kaya!"

oh ya.

kalau jadi dokter sebab niat nak tolong orang.

tolong lah fikir balik.

kalau ada orang tua nak melintas, sesiapa pun boleh tolong, kan?

kalau ada orang mengandung berdiri dalam bas atau LRT, sesiapa pun boleh tolong, kan?

kalau jadi dokter, sampai ke tua pun harus dan wajib belajar.

segulung ijazah tidak menentukan apa2.

ibarat mendapat lesen kereta.

adakah itu menjamin anda tidak akan mendapat kemalangan?

sudah tentu tidak, bukan?

jadi, kenapa nak jadi dokter?

aku sedih melihat orang yang jadi dokter tapi ada ilmu ghaib (pandai menghilangkan diri).

untunglah bukan semua orang macam ni.

kalau tak haru biru hospital jadinya.

kepada medical students atau houseman (cewah, macam la aku ni dah senior sangat), contohilah pakar2 yang rajin, attitude bagus (contohnya saling menghormati) dan pandai. 

pengalaman mereka banyak. kadang2 nak sedut dan cerna ilmu mereka agak susah (sebab aku rasa banyak sangat yang tak tahu).

bila dah jadi MO, rasa malas nak belajar tu sangatlah besar.

sekarang tengah sibuk memaksa diri untuk kembali menelaah.

suatu hari, ada seorang pakar berkata kepadaku yang dia sudah putus asa untuk mengajar kami.

katanya sebab kalau masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri tidak mengapa. ada jugak lekat di kepala walaupun sekejap. ini masuk telinga kanan pun tidak!

(lepas tu boleh pulak ada seorang houseman menyampuk, "eh, masuk je")

ades....

jadi, jom kita buka buku sekarang! ^^