Lima purnama (ARHJ Part 49)

dulu,

aku terjatuh,

dan aku kecewa.

saat itu hatiku merasakan sakit yang amat dalam,

hingga membuat aku hilang percaya.

tapi kau datang menabur bahagia,

dan tetap bertahan.

masihkah kau ingat saat dirimu menawarkan diri untuk menjadi 'future' zaujhku pada lima purnama yang lalu?

terima kasih atas kesabaran yang amat dalam, dr. HJ ^.^

terbiasa ada kamu ^^

membeli belah di jakarta (Episode 2)

hmmmmm....

masa di Jakarta, kepala dah pening nak cari ole2.

tiba2, terjumpa kerepek yang sedap dan unik!

pertama kali jumpa kerepek apel dan salak.

sedapp!!!

dan sangat murah, okay.

apa lagi, terus 'grab' banyak2.

kihkihkih.

kami jumpa kerepek2 ni di Mangga Dua Square, dekat je dengan ITC Mangga Dua tu...

oleh kerana ITC tutup pukul 5.30 ptg, malam memang tak tahu nak buat apa.

Yad dan bf dia nak pergi Hard Rock Cafe.

tapi sampai je kat sana rupenye tengah renovation!!!

jadi terpaksalah kami ke Plaza Indonesia.

masuk je tempat tu rasa macam orang kampung masuk bandar.

canggih betul!

macam dalam taman pun ada jugak.

barang di sini semua mahal.

tapi yang menariknya buah2an tempatan pun ada dijual.

tapi bila pegang.. la... buah tipu rupenye. kihkihkih

wood carvings

tempat ni sesuai untuk orang yang nak explore indonesia tanpa pergi ke tempat yang sesak, panas dan pening, dan ada bajet lebih.

kalau anda nak cuba makanan Indonesia tanpa risau kena diarhea, tempat ini memang sangat sesuai.

macam2 ada!

bakso!!! nyum nyum

di hadapan sebuah kedai sushi. nampak tak pintu kat mana?

shot by a chubby cupid. help!

wow.,. ni muzium ke ape?

ini adalah cara untuk memikat pelanggan yang hebat! fake sushies!

speechless tgk tmpt ni

i want that android!!!!!

paper dress, anyone?

 memang seronok bergambar kat Plaza Indonesia ni..

macam takleh berhenti snap gambar..

hihihi..

oklah..

sekian,itu saja dari saya..

byee ^^

shopping in jakarta (part one)

truthfully, i spend my days in Jakarta with shopping.

i even cancel my plan to go to Ancol (it's like a disneyland, they said).

so, early morning on Saturday, me n my friends walk from our hotel to Pasar Baru.

cheap shirts are available here.. suitable for 'ole2'. ehe~

and oh my, i went crazy over those sweet laces!!!! *drooling*

i end up buying 4 'semi french lace'

*not sure this is true or not but the girl at the shop said that it is called 'semi perancis'*

my friend ask me to bu this for her. kinda suitable for nikah, right?

i got all for about rm100 each only (including the lining)

there are also lots of laces perfect for wedding sold at about rm90 per metre.

i even made a mental note on what to buy for my wedding 

(berangan je eh. ntah bile la aku nak kawin ni.. gugugugu)

and can u imagine tailored coat for groom are only rm300?

oh, i really need to go here again someday.

it is a must!

but sadly, there are no telekung at Pasar Baru.

i thought i could find it there.

*sigh*

thus, in the afternoon, we take a 'tut-tut' (i know, the name is so damn cheky. ahaks) to go to the most famous shopping centre in Jakarta, the well known ITC Mangga Dua.

my bff with her bf in front of a tut tut

seriously, u can go crazy shooping at ITC Mangga Dua!!

one day is not enough as the shop closed as early as 5.30pm. 

there are lots of handbags, dresses, shirts. just name it. 

we even found our telekung here.

hmmm mane satu nak beli untuk mama ni?

oh nak yg ni boleh tak???? *mbekk*

what i end up buying. huhu.. can't resist too buy the soft peach telekung

oh pls don't confuse with WTC.

this is what you will get if u go to WTC

huhu..

oklah..

i'll tell more about jakarta later..

buhbyeee

sweetest gesture (ARHJ Part 48)

 it took me quite some time to realize what really happened in front of me last week.

i found this lovely couple during my trip to Jakarta.

at first i was like, why did this guy wear a pair of heels like it is some kind of accesory?

 (of course, being an obsess pink lover, the bright colour attract me like a bee attracted to honey)

and then when i look down, i gasped.

owh my... they are so sweet, right?

p.s. i mention this to my bf and he's like 'hmmm'

ahhh men.. *sigh*

Jakarta day 1

phew!
what a busy day.

we arrive at Terminal 3 Soekarno Hatta Airport at 5.15pm.
the place seems new, and the service is quite good.

it's been raining heavily today...
most of our clothes in the luggage were soaked by the rain!
arghhh.... 
*including my friend's bantal busuk, which she claimed she never wash it*
 gugugugugu

right now, i'm tired from walking too much.
feels so sad to see that most shop in Jakarta close as early as 8.30pm!
luckily, we had a lovely dinner at 'D cost', where they were proud of their motto that sounds like this :- 'mutu lima bintang, harga kaki lima'

i used to dine at this restaurant with my friends when i was still a medical student in Makassar. 
the foods are so delicious and so damn cheap!

sadly, i couldn't find any shop that sells Indonesian simcard tonight. 
not anywhere within a walking distance.
sigh~

despite the unfortunate events, there's at least one good thing about our trip so far, which is Fave hotel.
our hotel room is so damn cute!

i love the pink annd purple designs ^^ 
ehe~

oklah.
wanna sleep tight beneath the comfortable comforter while hugging the lovely pink pillow.
adios..
goodnight everyone.. ^.^v

scrabbles of love (ARHJ Part 47)

all my bags are packed, im ready to go......

hye!
i'll be leaving Malaysia on a jetplane aeroplane today.
and maybe we won't be able to hear each other's voice till Monday...
which would be the longest ever since we truly deeply madly in love.

oh my...
how to survive without hearing your voice?

every place i go, i think of u
every song i sing, i sing for u
when i come back, i'll wait for ur wedding ring
(whoops... ehe~)

i've been looking forward to shop till i drop in Jakarta since months ago.
but now i feel a little sad.
hiks.
but never mind.
i'll bring my beloved with me.
and capture all of the moments where i leave u to miss me...

me and my beloved, the red canon =)

oh dear, i hate to go.
i really really hate to go now. 

maybe i'll forget u for a while when i see those cheap things in Jakarta.
ngeh3.
but i can assure u that the beating meat inside my ribcage is all yours.
just like the scrabble words that u MMS me

eeee why ur name got more marks than mine! it is so not fair!

oklah.
i have to go now.
i'll scribble more later after i'm back.
bye!
gugugugugu~

p.s. everytime i miss u i'll stare at the pics u gave me.
and these 3 days i'm gonna spend my free time looking at those pictures,

smiling like an idiot in front of my blackberry.

my fav scrabble words

oh i am so in love...,

i used to have lots of wish in one time.
but now there is only one wish that i really want.
i wish u would stay forever.. 

right here in my heart.

song in the background in pink : Leaving on a jetplane

pejamkan mata (ARHJ Part 46)

"bila nak datang ni?" soalku kepadanya.

hatiku meronta2. 

dia terdiam. aku juga terdiam.

aku tahu soalan itu tak seharusnya aku tanyakan kepada dia.

bicara yang tadi ceria kini bungkam.

lalu talian dimatikan.

dan aku meneruskan langkah satu demi satu menuju ke tempat bertugas.

Ku pejamkan mata
kau hadir di sisi
ku hulurkan tangan
kau sambut dengan kasih
tenangkan lah hatimu
agar bisa ku senyum
pejamkan lah mata mu
jika rindukan wajah ku

satu SMS kuterima.

"kalau dah tak sanggup tunggu, cari je la orang lain"

aku terkesima. kad kuning pesakit asma dihadapanku kulihat berbayang- bayang.

arggh kenapa harus berkata sedemikian saat aku sedang menjalankan tugas?

kejam!!!!

mana mungkin aku tinggalkan dia.

mana mungkin hati ini mahu berpaling.

bukankah aku telah berjanji dia akan menjadi yang terakhir?

SMS demi SMS berbalas.

akhirnya, dia menghantar MMS ini:

"tapi kenapa tadi cakap mcm tu?" soalku.

entah" jawabnya ringkas.

Ku pejamkan mata
kau hadir di sisi
bisik mesra darimu
menyemai kasih mu
bahagiakan dirimu
agar bisa ku senyum
pejamkan lah matamu
ku pasti di sisi 

dua hari telah berlalu.

dan setiap hari aku jatuh cinta kepadanya.

aku bertekad untuk memeluk hatinya erat2 dan tidak mahu melepaskannya biar satu milimeter.

p.s. semalam dia suruh dengar lagu 'pejamkan mata- Ronnie' sebelum tidur. 

lalu aku pejamkan mata dan menghayati setiap bait lirik lagu tersebut

Untuk dikau kasih
ku curahkan cinta suci
yang tak mungkin terpadam
akan terus membara
bahagia kan dirimu
bisa aku tersenyum
pejamkan lah matamu
jika rindukan wajahku
janjiku kepadamu
aku pasti di sisi..

p.s. UAI kata kalau rindu jangan cakap kat Facebook sampai orang termuntah. harap2 takde orang baca ARHJ sampai nak termuntah. ehe~

the bitter truth of life

suatu hari, saat aku sedang memeriksa seorang lelaki berusia 30-an yang penuh berlumuran darah, seorang wanita datang menerpa. 

matanya terbuntang luas melihat darah dan muntah pada pesakit tersebut.

i have a strong feeling that she is the wife

"puan, sila tunggu di luar sebentar ya. nanti setelah periksa, saya panggil puan" ujarku.

dia meluru keluar dengan tangisan, membuat aku serba salah.

setelah pesakit dan persekitaran dibersihkan, si isteri masuk lagi ke ruang rawatan.

aku memberitahu keadaan suaminya agak kritikal. 

kesedarannya menurun dan perlu CT brain.

secara klinikal, aku pasti suaminya mempunyai perdarahan di otak.

"bagaimana keadaan suami saya dokter? stabil ke tak?" soalnya penuh harapan.

aku dan dokter lain berpandangan...

"tak" jawab kami sambil menggeleng kepala.

the bitter truth is much better than giving false hopes.

"then we'll just hope for the best, lah" kata dia.

setelah CT brain 'confrim' ada perdarahan, aku terasa lemah seluruh badan.

ini bukan kali pertama melihat kes sebegini.

tapi entah kenapa tangisan wanita itu berbeza.

aku seperti dapat melihat sinar cinta yang sangat jelas di mata beliau.

life can be cruel sometimes.

semoga wanita itu kuat menghadapi dugaan yang diberikan kepadanya.

AMIN.

*kadang-kadang, aku bersyukur aku memakai 'mask' sewaktu bekerja. selain dapat mengelakkan aku merasa loya dengan bau muntah dan bau lain2, dan mengelakkan penyebaran kuman melalui udara, ia juga dapat mengelakkan orang lain melihat air mataku yang mengalir saat melihat peristiwa sebegini*