da LazY Me

minggu ni aku cuti..
hehe..
sj nak rest sbb da abes kt pediatric ward smbilan minggu....
so minggu ni minggu malas..
sebab malas tahap max, masak pun cincai je

rebus spageti ngan fish cakes n fishballs,

then ptg sayur sket, tuang sos spageti segera...

gaul2.

siap..

tadaaaaa

sebab malas nak basuh pinggan,

aku makan dalam frying pan tu je...

dan makan pkai chopstick skali pkai...

jgn mara aku sebab menghabiskan pokok2 dunia.

tau tak berapa banyak pokok ditebang untuk membuat chopstick?

rencananya nk kemas bilik gak..

tp kemalasan menguasai diri...

p.s. teringat mama...

kalau malas mama kate 'kamu ni M tebal la..'

huhu..

sayang mama..

semalam webcam ngan mama..

hepi!

lalalaalaa

if only my heart could tell you diz

i've met too many wrong ones.....

and i wonder..

when, oh when,

will my knight come,

and rescue me from my loneliness?

i've searched every single corner

i've peeked every single hole

and i've asked my lonely heart...

who is Mr. Right?

is it you?

or U?????

or YOU??????

i will never know.....

p.s. i have a fragile heart..

pls dun break it anymore........

i could learn to live without you.....

but i couldn't breath,

if i hate you ,

forever...

exam da abes! yeay!

I exam hari kamis lps!
And it went well!
Alhamdulillah….
Huhu..
Neva felt better…
At last, my nine weeks end with a shining sun…
And believe it or not,
I present my work lima belas minit sebelum I kne kumpul ‘berkas’!
‘berkas’ tu maksudnye requirements to amik exam…
Kalau nak exam, kne:
present case dpn doctor dan family pesakit
kumpul marks from each subdivision and dptkn sign doctor kt subdivision tuh
amik sign doctors yg ‘jaga’ time kat hospital Labuang Baji,
buat folio psl case yg di’present’
salin satu status patient dari awal smpai dia blk
salin lima status patient yang di ‘observe’ kat ER
salin lima status pesakit yg diterima di Labuang Baji and discuss with residents
discuss with tutor at least 3 times
tulis ape saja kegiatan yg dibuat tiap2 hari mase kat rumah sakit bersalin Fatimah selama seminggu
tulis kegiatan setiap hari di rumah sakit Labuang Baji
semua tu kne kumpul hari selasa jam 1O pg.
I almost couldn’t make it…
Been asking da doctors to watch me present my work but none wanna help..
They kept saying ‘find other doctors’
Argh…
And one of then scold me ‘dah minggu sembilan br nk present?’
Yeah, it's MY fault.
But what to do?
I still kne present right?
Mase org tengah kumpul ‘berkas’, I pegi mintak sign doctor tu gak.
I ckp I nak kumpul berkas so by hook or by crook, she had to sign
Hehe.
Thank god dia sign..
Then, kitorg cabut undi untuk tau siapa yg uji kitorg dan hari apa kitorg exam
Mase undi, dokter ckp I exam hari rabu.
Mlm sebelum exam, pergi hospital cr patient.
I amik patient TDBD a.k.a. dengue hemorrhagic fever.
Pastu mulela anamnesis dan periksa fisis budak tu…

Hari exam…
Tak senang duduk I aritu..
Tibe2 ade residen ckp husband dr mattira meninggal
Dan exam batal….
Org len rase agk relieved sbb leh blaja lg
Mlgnye, I kne standby kt subdivisi Hematologi dan kne duduk kat situ wat kje smpai kul enam ptg.
Blk je pnt n tetido.
Tak studi pun! Teruk tol…

Hari kamis, tunggu penguji punyela lame.
Kitorg tunggu kt satu room yg tak digunakan..
Selambe je duduk kt katil bby.

Haha..
Prasan comey ar tuh eh?
Dlm kul satu ptg, I and my friend dipanggil utk exam
I bersyukur sgt dokter tu tgh good mood.
Baik gile!
Dia tanye soalan TDBD je!
Huhu…
Ade yg I n Maya tak dpt jwb… tp dia ajar kitorg lps tuh…
Huhu.
Best!
Bnyk gak soklan dia.
Bile da abes, dia ckp kitorg bagus..
And dia bg me n Maya ‘A’!
Oh, I’m so damn lucky!
What a nice day.
Lalala…..

p.s.
I would like to thank all da residents kt peads.. diaorg bnyk teach me… may you guys cpt2 jd specialist ank!
N to all of da specialist, who always makes me amazed cuz they are so intelligent!
To all of my friends, who keeps supporting me… tanpa korg aku tak sanggup nk hadapi sume dugaan.. tq!
And last but not least, to my beloved parents… who always gives me strength n money.. huhu…

Pergh, mcm dpt award je buat ucapan.
Poyo giler. But gimme a break, k? diz is my very first clinical exam!
Huhu.
peace

Nak exam!

tapi...
refarat tak siap lagi
belum baca pkmrs a.k.a. bedside teaching
belum dapat signature sorg dokter ni... dia sakit.... dokter lain tanak sign...
arghhh
belum pergi Rumah Sakit Bersalin Fatimah anta kje yg tertangguh dan mintak cop....
belum dapat nilai untuk banyak lg subdivision..
belum diskusi lg satu dengan dokter pembimbingku
MINGGU RENJATAN ini benar2 membuatku gila...
semua kne selesai sebelum selasa...
kalau tak minggu lg satu br aku leh exam....
cmne ni?
nk tambah lg satu minggu?
atau setelkn sumer dan exam jugak minggu dpn???
help me...

p.s. inilah akibatnya selalu main2, dan tangguh kerja.
sumpah tanak wat lg lain kali...
muke aku da nak pucat..
perut aku dah memulas2....

gi mana ini?
kodong...

beraya di perantauan

semalam raya haji.

tp mcm biase, aku beraya kt sni [indonesia]

tp hari tu dah blk raya aidilfitri

tu kali pertama raya kt kampung setelah tiga tahun beraya kt sni..

sedih?

sedih tu memangla sedih..

mase takbir kdg2 tak thn sebak..

semalam aku bangun kul enam setengah

sembahyang raya start pukul tujuh pagi.

khutbah mcm best...

ntah sape bg [budak msia gak yg bg khutbah]

mlm sebelum raya, kitorg bukak pose ramai2 kat aula [surau]

mase tu aku hepi gile

lame tak jumpe juniors n seniors..

mlh budak batch sndri pun lame tak jumpe

yelah, masing2 sibuk dgn urusan masing2..

pagi raya aku tak kne jaga kt hospital..

tp ade membe aku yg kne jaga...

dari 7pg smlm smpai da 2 ptg td lak tuh..

cian kt diaorg...

aku ckp nk jenguk diaorg kt rumah sakit tp aku g tito lak. [suri kwn2]

pg raya kitorg mkn bihun...

pastu dak lelaki sembelih lembu [bkn utk korban, tau]

siap je lapah kitorg msk ramai2 [aku tak tolong... slalu msk2 ni dak2 yg belum klinikal yg buat]

aku tolong mamam je..

hihi....

mlm smlm lak ade mjlis kt LT5 [lecture theater]

ade nasyid budak2 lelaki nyanyi

best!

plg mengancam ade yg main rebana mantap giler.

aku terkesima tgk dia main..

hebat!

ade gak senior yg da nk grad bg ucapan..

tgk diaorg, aku rase mcm2 feeling

sdeh diaorg da nk tingglkn kitorg

tumpang gembira atas keberhasilan diaorg
jeles sbb diaorg da nak abis sdgkn aku satu department pun tak abis2.
isk cemane ni???

minggu dpn nk exam
minggu ni digelar minggu renjatan

kerana semua harus dipelajari dan harus diurus minggu ini!

ni pun br blk dr LB..
dua jam tunggu dokter kt sane...

dia ngh meeting

pastu dia lupe aku ngh tunggu dia, dia g borak2

bile dia nk blk, dia terkejut tgk aku.

dia kate sori dia lupe.

seb baik dah setel urusan aku ngan dia...

mintak sign je pun

huuhu....

bersama ini aku bg korg tgk gbr aku beraya kt sni thn2 lalu

gbr thn ni takde sbb aku nye kamera da ilang..
enjoy

mkn2 pg raye

kwn2 aku ngah msk rendang. huhu

raye kt umah prof

bnyk foods!!!

aku d pagi raye.. hehe

FiVe ThOuSanD WorDs in fiVe MinuTeS

they said that a picture worth a thousand words

here, i gave u five thousand words [excluding captions].

if u can't finish it in less than five minutes, i'm sure you've got a loose screw in your brain.

huhu




dari kiri ke kanan --> jack, kack, lack, mack, nack, quack, pack


theme--> young executives. haha...



my fav pic!




y on earth did i wore my dad's stuffs?


believe it or not, waktu ni bibir aku mengelupas truk gile [allergy to lipgloss] smpai aku rase malu. so aku pon wat gaya 'ayat2 cinta'. hihi.

kisah unit gawat darurat [UGD] aka emergency room

hari ni last aku kat pedsos [pediatrik sosial]

seminggu aku dok jaga kat emergency room dan kat poliklinik anak


[kak wani di poliklinik anak]

kat poli best!
br rase mcm dokter btul..
walaupun bkn aku yg dok kt krusi dokter, tp best la kt situ...
huhu.
tringt time kcik2 mase jumpe dokter kt klinik...

kat ER lak,
bnyk dtg dgn berak encer [diare]

ade yg dtg2 mase tgh kejang
and case paling lawak--> ade yg kejang mase mak dia tgh breastfeed anak dia!

alkisahnye begini, aku tgh follow up sorg bby ensem yg sesak [siyes ensem!]
pastu tibe2 dengar org jerit 'doc! doc!'

aku mls nk pndg...
mase tu aku ngah penat plus tensen sbb patient ramai dan residen yg jaga kt ER tu 'gaduh gelisah'
takleh tgk coass duduk langsung! [budak klinikal mcm aku dipanggil koas]
so aku mls nk pndg makcik tu sbb diaorg suke panggil kitorg jerit cmtuh.
sbb bile aku pegi tgk, dia kate IV anak dia tak jln la, dia rase ank dia mcm bertambah demam la, etc.
mcm la emergency sangat.

waktu tuh dlm emergency room aritu ade 13 patient.
sbenarnye sume kne rawat inap tp ward penuh...
knela thn kat ER je...
so pntla aku ngan kwn aku...
mcm2 kne buat...
stress berat aku mlm tuh!

tibe2 kwn aku pun panik.
aku pon toleh la...
tgk2 anak dia tgh kejang!
abis dia geget mak dia punye nipple.
menjerit2 mak dia kesakitan.
mmg la kesian tp dlm ati aku rase mcm klaka... isk jaat eh aku...
tp kalau korg tgk time tuh mmg funny cuz mak dia wat gaye2 aneh..
so ape lg, membe aku cpt2 tlg...
aku lak kne lari g carik diazepam..
mase tuh kul 12 tgh mlm kot...
kat ER tu lak takde diazepam
hampeh tol...
knela aku berlari ke bwh g kat farmasi g amik ubat...
dlm hati aku tensen je sbb aku dah suruh mak dia kompres anak dia.
suhu anak dia da 39 darjah celcius tp dia tanak kompres.
aku bengang ngan mak bapak yg tak dengar ckp nih..
aku ckp baik2 dia wat bodo...
dahle suke panggil aku nurse...
tp sbr je la kan.
siapela aku ni...
last2 suhu ank dia da smpai EMpaT pULUH DUA!

nak menambahkan mlg pd mlm tuh,
mase budak tu br je dimasukkn diazepam melalui lubang anusnya,
tiba2 sorg lagi kejang!
tgk mcm menggigil, tp bile tgk mata dia, aku confirm dia kejang.
aku punyela takut nk bgtau resident tuh..
dia garang bukan main...
dan time tu dia ngah pgg budak yg kejang mule2 tuh..
maka setelah aku menarik nafas dlm, aku ckp kat dokter tuh
'doc, anak yg di sana juga kejang'

dokter tu mengeluh.
bad mood gile dia mlm tuh...
[sejam lalu aku br je kne marah sbb 2 org je coass kat situ. dia nk tiga org.
'kalau tidak ada tiga orang, kalian semua TURUN MINGGU!
saya akan pastikan kamu di bahagian anak sebelas minggu']
turun minggu means tmbh lg sminggu kt bahagian tuh...
spttnye 9 minggu je kat ANAK.

tp kan, dokter grg tuh bagus.
keje mantap
rmai gak parents suka kat dia.
aku pon kagum gk kdg2 dgn dia.
ilmu banyak wooo...
hbt2...
dan dia kat budak2 lembut gile.
'ye syg, sakit ya sayang?' lembut je dia ckp [dokter tu lelaki]
tp bile tgk muke co ass 'ini kenapa ndak bla bla bla, mana bla bla bal, ko ini bla bla bla'
haha...

when u are at da lowest of da rank, what treatment can u expect?

arini kt ward n kat ER sepi je...

kenapa?

sume nk blk sebab esok raye....

siyes nih!

aku gerenti selasa nanti full blk.....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!!!

MeMoiRs of LaBuAnG BaJi HoSpiTaL

Last week, me and my 13 friends were assigned to ‘work’ at Labuang Baji hospital.
It took almost an hour ride from my apartment to get there
[Yeah, it’s so far away! I took da time to sleep. So if u ask me how exactly to get there, I don’t know cuz I’ve slept in da cab when I’m on da way to get there and on da way home. huhu]

Sunday
We arrived at 7.oo am.
As I reached da pediatric ward, I saw lots of people gathered at the entrance.
Some were crying…
Some were anxious…
And I saw two of my colleagues standing beside a girl who seems to be 11 years old.
The girl was lying on a bed, with two IV lines connected to her right hand and her left leg.
I began to feel unease.
This seems bad…..
The girl was in hypovolemic shock.
Few minutes went by….
My friends were doing what they were supposed to do, which is giving the girl more and more fluids via her IV.
But unfortunately, she died.
Loud cries stung our ears.
The girl’s mum fell unconscious.
And so starts our day at LB.
I and my friends look at each other.
THIS IS A BAD SIGN….
Our week had begun with the end of a girl.
Oh, what a beginning!

We divided ourselves into two groups. And here’s our schedule

M > Morning 7.oo a.m. – 2.oo p.m.
D > Day 2.oo p.m. – 9.oo p.m.
N > Night 9.oo p.m. – 7.oo a.m.

Kinda 'packed up' rite?

Still, it's a lot better than the other week where i had to stay at da maternity hosptial from saturday 2 p.m. till 2 p.m. da next saturday!!

Monday
Met da witch for da first time.
We were ‘petrified’ in front of her for two hours.
I hear everything but absorb nothing.
She scolded us cuz something we never know we had to do...
As I was da chief, I was called many times as we were so ‘unorganized’.
Yeah, it’s my fault for not knowing what to do…
I should’ve asked my friends who was there last week.
Arghhh…

Tuesday
Nothing much. Patients come n go like in da ‘Touch n Go’ toll line.

my sphygmo was 'crazy' so Mr 'know it all' fix it for me!

see! it's back to normal!

Wednesday
Smallest baby i've ever met wuz sent to the hospital! only six hundred grams!!!!!!!

and to compare with this four kg baby! what a difference!

Anyway, my tutor was da one on duty dat evening!
When he knew I’m his tutee, he asked me to study.
“We will discuss after I ate” he said.
My heart played da original ‘lup dup lup dup’ song so fast that i swear it rhymes with eminem's song!

Owh, I’m SOOO NOT ready!
Yeah, I had been in ‘pediatric’ for six weeks but I felt like I know nothing.
During discussion, he asked me to ask him anything.

[My five friends were also there, following our discussion. It’s not easy to get a chance to discuss with the residents. They were always busy!]
How can I ask when I haven’t study well yet?
I manage to ask something, and then he’ll answered and ask me back.
Thankfully I manage to give some right answers. And when I couldn’t answer, my friends helped me.
There was one time he said 'Don’t embarrass me'
Hehe…
My beloved tutor left me few home works, which I accept with open hands.
It will help me to learn more, right?
That day, my tutor had taught us so much.
He also redirects our diagnosis.

First case
My friend thought it was Dengue Hemorrhagic Fever
[But he ‘forgot’ to check da patient’s lymph nodes]
When the doctor looks at da boy, he palpates it and found few lumps.
He said ‘this is maybe leukimia’ then look at me n my friend ‘find out more about it, ok?’
Oh, more homework!

Second case
I receive a patient who came from other hospital with bronchopneumonia.
When I told him, he didn’t believe it [it’s his nature NOT to believe other people. But it’s kinda good cuz he’s brilliant]
He asked few questions and check da patient carefully.
Then he wrote Asthma Bronchial in da patient’s status.
And even though he didn’t ask me to study the case, I felt a responsibility to learn about it.
Oh, there’s so much I had to find out!

Thursday
Witch was mad cuz we failed to follow up her patients.
We had went to da ward and asked ‘Is there any pediatric patients here?’
Da nurses said ‘yeah, there’s one’
Turns out there were exactly three patients!
Da witch was so mad.
And we were ‘petrified’ again in front of her; standing like a stone and listens to her blabs.

During shifts, we were prohibited to left da ‘wooden table’.
So this is our activities when we were there [when there's no new patient or no complaints from da parents about their kids being sicker or anything else]

Harry was 'sms'ing his cute little 'baby monkey'

esha was drawing beautiful clothes designs while fajrul was playing games on his phones

winnie was sleeping [as usual]

Kak wani listening to her Mp5

and me? pretending to study? haha...

this day Iman was sick... pity her.... but she's fine now. alhamdulillah..

Friday
Before six pm, everything was ok.
At six p.m., 5 patients came!
Every patient must be checked from head to toe and anamneses had to be done [asking questions about da patients’ symptoms and history of medications].

And we had to check every ward at seven p.m.!
[Patients with rich parents were placed at the other building, and they were spread from da first floor till da fourth floor]

It was so hectic!
My shifts ends at 9 but our friends [night shift] came late.
And we stop by to buy some sate as we [me, iman, kak wani and harry] were so hungry.
By da time we want to went home, there was no pete2 [public transport which is a van modified to occupy 12 passengers] to our home.
So we had to take da cab [which was so expensive].
And to add our bad luck, we was stuck in traffic jam.
We reached home at 11.3O p.m.
Owh, I‘m so tired!

Saturday
Witch was angry [again?!?!]
I forgot why she was angry cuz I don’t wanna hear her shrieking voice [maybe I remember, but I don’t wanna write about it]
She said we were liars.
She said ’u guys can talk behind my back. I didn’t meant to find your mistakes but God showed me your mistakes’
Da whole time she talks, I was thinking ‘Say whatever you want, wicked witch. This is da last time we met. Hehe’

Sunday
Though our shift officially ends at 7a.m., we left at eight.
We settle some chores and left some advices for our friends who replaced us.
Hope they don’t get scolded like us!
I reach home at 9a.m., take a bath and went to Wahidin Sudirohusodo Hospital at 2p.m. [it is located in front of my apartment.]
Unluckily, I had to work there at the emergency ward till 9p.m.
Oh, what a day!
Sigh~

a witch who made me said da word b****

pna tak jumpe sumone yg mcm wicked witch?

yg suke membebel tak tentu pasal?

yg sangat suke mencari kesalahan org lain...

dan asyik ckp org menipu...

minggu ni aku jumpe org yg mcm tu....

dia buat aku jd jahat

sbb aku panggil dia

wicked witch/ nagging old b****/ crazy old virgin
[men teka je dia virgin]

huhu...

dia buat kwn aku jadi sadis

sbb kwn aku kate nk bakar kete dia

and nak bakar dia atas api

sume org benci dia...

kenapa hati dia busuk sangat eh?

knape la tak duk umah je jage cucu[ kalau dia ade cucu, la]

drpd dia dtg tiap2 hari membebel kt kitorg

dia pning..... kitorg laaaaaaaaaagi pning

ade je mende dia ckp kitorg salah....


i neva met anyone so 'blackhearted' like her

she's like a witch.....

she turns the bright sunny day into a damp cold night....

when she walks, dark grey clouds followed her...

when her eyes look deep into us

it left a very painful mark on our heart

when u look at her,

all of ur spirits fell down....

she's our nightmare

she's da one we loathe

she is da one who we did not want to see

she is da one who hate us so much and always nig nag.......

she turns us into a wicked person......

cuz i felt like i wanna choke her and say

"stop talking, u crazy b****!"

astaghfirullahalazim....

kenapa la aku mcm ni.......

sorry wicked witch...

i truly hate u...

and i promise myself...

I'll never ever ever be like u..................

worst week i've ever had

I just came back from a hospital yesterday.
me and my friend [Iman] had been there since last Saturday.

yeah, only two of us, a fifth week peadiatric coass, who knew so little about what we were about to face there.....
And not even once we went back home!
It’s such a torture.
I felt like a SLAVE.
I only sleep two hours everyday……
And I work so hard until i couldn't walk...

what?

u ask me what did i do?

well, here's my schedule

three a.m. [yeah, THREE a.m.]

write all of the baby's status

[which is almost half of page for each baby... and there's so many babies there... of cuz la. it's a maternity hospital!]

six a.m.
check and weigh all of the babies.

eight a.m.
accompany the resident to round the whole hospital to examine on every babies

~they will check the babies' status that we had filled before

~once i was scolded cuz i wrote that the baby is normal while she's so yellowish[jaundice]!!!!!!!!!

~there's too much babies that sometimes i don't check them carefully.

~the next day, me n Iman check them with EXTRA care even though we are so tired and our legs is so ache to even take a small step. haha

ten a.m.

make a 'milk schedule' for every babies in the 'babies room' [dats what it's called]. and follow the resident's intructions such as

'start phototheraphy for baby A!

or

'call the laboratory! ask them to check this baby's billirubin!'

or maybe

'follow up these two patients every three hours!'

huhu

~all of the sick babies are in the 'babies room'

~and this room is like my second home...

~this is where i sleep, eat and work...

~thank god there's a television, which i don't even have time to watch..

~but it's my only connection with the 'outer' world'! hehe

every hour

~check the delivery room if there's any fetuses about to be born

~if there's one, wait n watch the delivery

~if the baby did not cry one minute after born, take them and run [yeah, RUN! it's somebody's life!] to the 'babies room' and suction and resucitate them there.

~if the baby is ok, just do the apgar and ballard score, inject Neo K [yeah, students here can give injections] and examine them

~write the baby's status, which filled the whole page! it consist of examination from head to toe.

~if there's any cesarean section planned by the obgyn doctors, call the paediatric residents, prepare the operation clothes and resucitation's stuffs, then watch the operation and catch the baby.

yeah, i know it sounds easy...

but the delivery room is ALWAYS full!

there is almost twenty deliveries per day!

sometimes the nurses were to lazy to give the babies in the 'babies room' milk that me and Iman had to feed them ourselves.

this baby is too hungry that she 'ate' her friend's leg.... due to limited space, we had to place two babies in one incubator.

sometimes we even had to change their diapers! otherwise they'll keep crying!

some are too mollycoddle. they won't stop crying unless i hold them and sang them a lullaby!

the baby at the right is four kg! she's sooo big dat her chest got stucked while she was delivered. for almost five minutes, only her head popped out from her mum's vagina. everyone tot she's dead. and dat time, peadiatric resident was at home [it's 2 a.m.!] thank god the resident come in time n save da baby. hooray!

but then.......

There was a time where i felt like i don't want to be a doctor.

I felt like i wanna go back home and be a teacher.

the luggage that i bring to the hospital... i only spent seven days there but i bought things like i'm going back home!

i used to be tough....

my fren SMS me and said she only knew the 'strong willed and high spirited' me...

not the 'easy to give up' type

i am a very determined person.

i can even smile while holding a snake.

i can force myself to play netball and futsal though i've injured myself

as i re-read her SMS, i cry...

as a matter of fact,

i cried almost everyday...

and usually not because of the same reason...

first time i cried at the maternity hospital is when i watch Ashraff Sinclair and Bunga Cinta Lestari wedding reception on tv

i cry cuz they seems so happy while i'm stuck at the hospital, changing a baby's diaper. at dat time, i'm so tired and so unhappy ;p

i also cry when i heard newborn babies held by their dad n he will recite the 'azan' to the baby... such a beautiful moment!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cry when i saw mummys' delivering their baby. it's soooooooooooooo painful!!!!

i cry wen baby kasmawati die of HDN [kemorrhagic disease of newborn]

i cry cuz the room at the hospital is so plain while i miss my lovely room [at least i think it's lovely and comfy]

i cry cuz i miss my effy... wanna play with her!!

I CRY cuz i'm so MAD when the nurses think that they are better than me......

i love but i hate my life at the hospital...[how can i exactly describe it?????]

it makes me wanna cry even for the most stupid reason....

it makes me smile seeing those cute babies

it makes me so damn tired

but i gives me a satisfaction no one can ever felt except me myself

anyway, today i went shopping!!!!!!!

had spent almost rm2hundred!! [sorry daddy]

but now i feel so happy!!!!!!

hehe...

and i ate lots of yummy foods today.....

now i feel ok...

gimme more.....

and i promise u....

i'll get through anything till i achieve my dream to be a great DOCTOR......

tagged by shahnaz.. hehe

My Top 10 Most Favorite Foods :

1. Tomyam (especially secret’s recipe’s tomyam!)
2. Shouffle omelet (my own modified recipe~ easy to cook and sooo delicious!)
3. Dark chocolate

4. Tango choco nut

5. Double cheeseburger

6. Mushroom soup

7. Roti puree

8. McD choc sundae

9. Ikan patin masak tempoyak… scrumptious!
10. Anything fried and spicy.. Fattening but irresistible!

Top 10 Things I Love Doing :

1. play games!!!!

2. Read novels

3. Play with Effy my tortoise
4. Listen to Bessy my radio
5. Read blogs
6. Eat, eat and eat [no wonder I’m so chubby now]
7. Window shopping!
8. Chatting via YM
9. Checking my Friendster! huhu
10. Decorating my room?!?!?

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm EMO :

1. Ran away from everyone
2. EAT [again?]
3. Walk alone [usually I window shop. Huhu]
4. play games
5. Sleep. Haha

Top 5 Types of Guys I Adore :

1. Hard working guys
2. Guys with charisma
3. Caring and loving men
4. Egoist guys ~dunno why… but they attract me so much. Huhu.
5. WINNERS… huhuhu

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm Happy :

same with the things I love to do…. Huhu…

5 Things I Wish To Happen :

1. Me being a good doctor
2. Meeting my ‘prince charming’
There lots of things I wish to happen but it’s not too important cuz now, I wanna follow the flow of life and enjoy it!

My Top 10 Most Addicted Song :

1. On my way here ~ clay aiken
2. Wishing on a star ~ OST the tenth kingdom

3. Bleeding love ~ celine dion

4. Take a bow~ Rihanna

5. My only one ~ Mocca

6. Bizarre love triangle ~ Frente

7. Smack that ~ Eminem

8. Last train home ~ Ryan Star

9. If I were a boy ~ Beyonce

10. No Air ~ Jordan Sparks ft Chris Brown