21 November 2009

wake up (dedicated to udin)




wake up! 
wake up from those eerie dreams. 
fly away from the haunting nightmare.... 
and run from the darkness, my friend.
for it give us nothing but fear.
and fear, 
may crush our empire of hope, 
destroying our mountain of prayers, 
which we had sealed with tears of emotions. 

but what is the price of love,
without the raging fire and the soothing water?



 perhaps...
this is the rain before the rainbow colored the sky.


and maybe...
we will all wake up 
and realize....
that it is just a nightmare



 

you can't leave us like this, my friend...
clinging to the memory of your smile,
hanging beneath the fading laughter of yours.



there's a big lantern for your future, 
don't you ever dare to give up!



this entry is dedicated to Fachruddin Sofwan, my colleague who had just undergo a brain surgery to remove an oligodendroglioma at his frontal brain. he had survived the surgery, but haven't recover fully after the operation (i had been informed that till now, he's in delirium state of mind). 
right now, there's nothing we can do except to pray for his recovery.
get well soon, udin!!

thank you Kiwi_Gal for these lovely pics!


20 November 2009

bukan.bulan.kamu


kukerah otak yang satu, kupijak bayang2ku,

ku canang keaibanku dan aku ganyang semua yang kau puja..

tak mungkin!!!!
tak mungkin kau lebih sanggup mati dari mencoret satu nama dari hatimu




(p.s. selurus itukah aku untuk percaya kata2 manismu yang semasam limau nipis itu?)

19 November 2009

aku kene santau

ades.... terkena SANTAU TAGGED oleh Inn...
da lame weih tak jawab tag. 

takpela. demi membe skola lame, buat jugak lah tag nih!

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah... 

errr... soalan first da macam ni. 
NEXT QUESTION please!
(tolong jangan salah faham. it's not like i haven't get over him. i just couldn't think of any good word nor bad word to describe him)

2. Saya sedang mendengar... 

the song 'i don't believe you' by PINK



3. Mungkin saya patut...
kemas bilik sekarang jugak. ngeh3


4. Saya suka... 
main game! kura2! read novels!!! weee~

5. Sahabat-sahabat saya...
syira dan farzaana mesti tengah belajar sebab diaorang nak exam. all da best kwn2!! baji tengah duty kat hospital sampai pukul 4ptg esok. tadi nampak dia bawak laptop, katanya nak buat refarat mase tgh duty sebab esok kene hantar. chaiyok2!!! \(^.^)/ balqis tengah tgk tv kot? dia pon cuti minggu ni. babe, enjoy habis2an wokey? ok, da terlalu panjang i describe member2 i... ehehehe~

6. Saya tak paham...
kenapa tag ni name dia SANTAU. ape kaitan perkataan santau dengan soalan2 nih?

 
7. Saya kehilangan...
my trust to some type of guys

8. Ramai yang berkata...
I've lost a few kg. tak sia2 mengamalkan diet sihat. yeay!

9. Cinta itu adalah...
sesuatu yang SUCKS if it's based on lust

10. Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang...
kepanasan dan kerimasan (nasib baik kat sini tak blackout sekarang)


12. Saya akan cuba...
untuk grad pada Dec 2010. strive harder bebeh!

13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud...
dat word doesn't exist in my dictionary lah!


14. Telefon bimbit saya...
adalah jiwa dan ragaku. takle hidup kalau mase duty takde fon.
camne nak online, dgr muzik atau main game kalau takde handphone???????????????????????

15. Bile saya terjaga...
terus bukak Facebook via handphone supaya mata terbukak luas bile tengok orang lain pon dah bangon.


16. Saya paling meluat...
dengan tempat ni sekarang! asyik takde letrik dan takde air je!


17. Pesta/parti adalah...
pesta menuai ke pesta ape nih (ok, maaf sbb tak menjawab soalan)

18. Haiwan yang paling comel penah saya temui...
anak singa dan anak kura2!!! tp kenapa bila da besar dua2 jenis haiwan ni tak kiyut dah?

19. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan saya ialah...
20 tahun lalu atau 20 tahun lagi (pick one)

20. Hari ini...
i pergi ambil surat IZIN belajar dari tingkat 7 gedung rektorat (pergi balik jalan kaki sebab nak 'bersenam') tapi naik tingkat 7 dengan lif.hihi.

lepas tu pergi fotostat, dan kemudian pergi imigresen tp kene 'halau' sebab gambar salah saiz. awalnye nak pergi cuci gambar kat MTOS tp kedai gambar tutup sbb tgh renovation. akhirnya i hanya beli Mocha Float kt KFC yang hanya berharga rp5500 tapi sangat sedap! kemudian pergi BTP cuci gambar dan pergi ke imigresen tapi waktu tu dah waktu istirahat.setelah sejam menunggu, baru dapat urus KITAS dan akhirnya disuruh kembali minggu depan untuk urusan pembayaran pula.
dan semua itu berlaku sebelum jam 1ptg. phew! what a day!

21. Malam ini saya akan...
setelkan reformat laptop kawan dan installkan ape yg patut (sape nak i reformatkan laptop FOC? sila datang ke C3**) lalala~

22. Esok pula saya akan...
pergi fakulti, ambil surat untuk masuk Forensic this Monday, dan akan main game sepuas hati! yeay! (eh, kene kemas bilik jugak)

23. Saya betul2 inginkan...
EDWARD CULLEN!!!!! (betulke esok New Moon keluar? sape nak belanja i tgk New Moon? pls.pls. tlg belanja i tgk lelaki hensem yang MENGGIGIT itu.. pleaseeeeeeeeeeee (dengan muka kesian)

24. Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini...
arghh.. mati kau! 

aku bunuh kau dengan racun, 
wahai jerawat bangsat! 
(ubahsuai dari kata2 waniardy dalam buku "perempuan simpanan")


25. Pusat membeli belah atau arked permainan...
are you nuts? of course la shopping complex! 

window shopping can easily relieves my stress!!! i'm always happy to see beautiful stuffs.and it's cheaper too.

26. Makanan barat atau jepun...
western.sushi is too raw for me


27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap...
depends on my moodlah. selalunye suke terang. gelap tak nampak pape la

28. Makanan segera adalah...
aku tak faham soalan macam ni weih. 

bukanke makanan segera tu Maggi dan yang sewaktu dengannya?


29. Ayat terakhir yang anda telah katakan pada seseorang...
ish, kenapa dia tutup?! 

(tanyaku kepada org sebelah bilik sebab tak puas hati bila dia bgtau yang pak guard  tutup meter air my room)

30. Anda tak perasan ke soalan no 11 itu tiada?
eh, takde ke?
copy paste je. mane la sedar


eh eh.. dah habis la! hehehe
ok.. nak pergi kemas bilik 
(berape kali dah cakap nak kemas bilik nih?)
ngeh ngeh ngeh



17 November 2009

melalut je ni.. jangan bace kalau korang sibuk

today is tuesday.
and i had a non productive day.
i kept thinking of doing so many stuffs but i end up sleeping like a 'sleeping beauty' and playing games like there is no tomorrow.
well, as if 'thinking' can move something, right?
it's been six weeks since i had my holiday.
and when it comes, i seriously dunno what i should do! plus i had to save money.
no more 'jalan2'.
i had already spent rp130k for Samalona trip.

my room is like a shrunken ship. i kept thinking to clean up all the mess
(but like i said, just thinking is not enough rite?)


i look so weird when i'm thinking

i had even said to myself, 
i don't want to touch any medical books this week.
seriously, no reading this week! then next week i'll start reading back, okay!

i keep wondering why am i so lazy right now.
i hate being unproductive.
maybe tomorrow i will do everything.
can't 'tangguh2' anymore.
*sigh

 
ok.. about this pic...
i am obsessed with Farmville right now!!!
but i have some deep trouble, lah.
did anyone know how to adopt those poor animals that came by to our farm?
last time i there was a cute tortoise but i end up losing it! arghh..
(like anyone gonna answer my question, rite?)

16 November 2009

Samalona, what a beauty!

OK, Samalona isn't a homo sapien's name.
though it do sounds like Saloma, it's actually a name of a bitch beach.

an island, to be exact. ehe~

So yesterday i went to the Samalona island with five friends. though i am supposed to save money, i can't lose this opportunity! i had wanted to go there since i was in my mum's womb first year!. usually i am the first to dip myself in the water and the last to go out. haha. what? i really love swimming, lah. u can't blame me, ok.



All six of us were so excited. we leave the RUSUN at 5.40 a.m. so early, huh? i didn't even showered before i go cuz i woke up at 5.30 a.m. damn, why can't i wake up late even at holiday?!?! another reason i didn't showered is because of the water shortage. there's even a fire truck came by everyday to give us enough some water.

When we had reached the jetty at 6.30 a.m, our chartered boat was already there. her name is cute --> Bibir Merah. better than Dewi Persik. ewwww... i swear my life i will never board a boat with her name (there's a boat with that name near Bibir Merah). if u didn't know who the hell is Dewi Persik, just googled her. i swear i'm not the only one on this earth who hated her.



this is us in the Bibir Merah. credit to Athirah for taking this pic.

U know, what? First thing my friends said when they saw Bajie is, 
"ko nak pergi mane? pergi mall ke?"
haha. 
guess which one is Bajie. i think her dress is so cute, la. 

back to the story...
to tell you the truth, we were shocked to see Samalona.
first, the water is so blue, lah!


second, we never thought there's a beautiful place at Makassar (aside from Trans Studio and UNHAS lake) errr... at least i think the lake is beautiful. 
and third, it is not as big as i thought. only a few steps and there, you've crossed the whole island already! 

we were 'attacked' by some people when we had finally arrived. 
'did u want to rent any house?' 
'want to order some lunch? we got fish, chickens and many more!'
'our hut is only rp20k!'
OMG, those were so annoying. thank god we had already arranged everything. so we just smile and say, 'no thanks'
our room wasn't too bad. only rp100k per half day, it is quite spacious and clean enough. 

then it is time for snorkeling! snorkeling set was rp20k per use, excluding the flippers. i don't want any flippers cuz it looks like a duck feet. but after that, i regret my decisions cuz the corals hurt my feet T.T





snorkeling was fun! lots of beautiful corals and fishes!!! my fav is a dark blue fish which i had tried to catch with my bare hands, but i guess all fish have such agility that it is hard to do so.

i had even taught Atiq how to swim. the hardest part was to taught her how to float.
i kept saying 'try to lose everything and make urself lighter'
how in the hell people could understand that, right?
but with the help of the big tire, she had succeeded!


"ok Atiq, now u had already know how to float, try to swim to me"  i said to Atiq, while 'coaching' her to swim.



and voila! my friend had mastered another skill in her life!

anyway, while we were having a blast, some cute Indonesia kid call us 'Kak Ros'. maybe they heard us talking in Malay. both of them were so cute. so we called them Upin and Ipin. hehe. turns out their bro was named 'opan' (or maybe he's their dad but he looks so young, handsome!)

upin and ipin, and lots of 'Kak Ros'.

a day at the beach will be dull without any camwhoring.
we had tried to take a pic of all of us jumping.
but the result is this...

  damn. i look so stupid in this pic.



this one oklah kot.
at least my feet wasn't on the ground.
why does other people's jumping pics were so damn awesome?
arghh... 


at 11a.m., we were so exhausted and stop swimming. our lunch was delicious. ikan bakar with a super pedas sauce. it's a finger licking good! 
the sea water makes our body sticky. we thought the bathroom there use fresh water but it wasn't. there is no fresh water on the island. *sigh


oh my, what a long entry. maybe i should stop talking now. but wait! i haven't tell u guys about our unforgettable moment yet!

a pose from my friend before we thought our life was gonna end. i was the one who had just boarded the Bibir Merah.

OK, what really happens was the waves were so big, and our not-a-speed-boat was almost turned down by the big, hungry waves. i was soaking wet when I've reached the shore. it is really an amazing yet scary experience. i almost thought we weren't gonna make it. the lapping waves was so scary that we shriek and shout our lungs out a the first few minutes. after that, we sat silently, wishing and praying that everything will be over as soon as possible.
and after a tiring journey, we had reached the shore safe and sound, and soaking wet.

 this wobbly thing is weird, lah. 
ehehe


apart from the scary journey back home, everything was worthwhile, and tons of funs!!!
all i had to say about Samalona is, it is indeed, a beautiful island.





15 November 2009

the end is near

If I was asked to describe '2012' with only one word, 
i would choose the word 
WOW!
actually, i want to give a big WOW! to this movie.






Seriously, i love this movie so much!
The amazing yet scary disasters amazed me, leaving me with a gaping mouth and stunned eyes.


It's definitely the greatest movie that I've watched so far.


My companions didn't like this movie as much as i do, but people do have different taste, right?



Anyway, this movie had left me thinking of so many questions.


What if, 
without any warning,
the earth cracks and shatters?


What if, 
suddenly a big wave hit this very land and drowned us all?


What if,
i die,
before i even had a chance to say goodbye?


think of it...


whether the apocalypse is near or not,
we never know when is our time to leave this world.
we cannot see death. 
it maybe so far away, yet it is also so near.


the big question is,
are we ready to die?



for more info on 2012, click here
 
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

as i wrote this, one of my friend had just lost his father. 
may ALLAH bless his father's soul. 
AL FATIHAH.
my condolence to TUAN MOHD AZLAN BIN TUAN SOH for his great loss. 
may ALLAH gives u strength, my friend.
AMIN

14 November 2009

bukak klinik same2

alhamdulillah, exam dengan dr. ES berjalan dengan lancar.
exam hari kamis malam, dekat klinik dia.

sementara tunggu dia check semua patient dia,
aku tgk2 sekeliling.
sebelah bilik dia ade bilik husband dia.
husband dia pakar pediatric.
diaorang bukak klinik sama2.
prof K. pon bukak klinik dengan wife dia. wife dia dokter gigi.
sweet je kan.

mase tengok nama kat pintu dia,
aku teringat mama pernah sarankan aku kawen dengan dokter.
"boleh bukak klinik same2," kate mama.

jadi mase tengok klinik dr ES, aku terfikir,
"kalau mama dan babah jadi parents diaorang, mesti mereka bangga kan, kan?"


tapi kan....
aku lagi suke businessman.

sebab nanti dia boleh sponsor untuk aku bukak klinik.
dan klient dia kene jadi patient aku.

haha.





wei, ainul.
ni soal jodoh, la!
sengal.

09 November 2009

weee~

last week was like a dark gloomy day..

i got some flu (which was left untreated and masih belum sembuh sampai sekarang),
and i got some other problems too......

tapi harini semua nampak cantik!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kawasan 'construction' yang berdebu2 depan RUSUN pon nampak berseri2 macam ni
(ok, ini agak over. harap maaf)

i hope this is a good sign for a good week.
lalala~

gambar selingan.
poyo je rite?
ngeh3
sila doakan saye berjaye dalam exam saye minggu ni ye kawan2.
trime kasih!

03 November 2009

i need air to breath, and air untuk mandi

ok i tau title ni aneh.
otak tgh tak betul.
dan ini adalah entry ke3 hari ini.
harap maklum.
tak tau kenape jari sengal sangat nak menaip kata2 ni,

khas untuk manusia ni yang buat i sangat rimas dan pening.
(sila abaikan kesalahan grammar)

Your words are like a light wind breeze,
struggling to make a tree fall down.
Though thousand attempts may not succeed,
it does move the leaves a little bit
(and by saying that, I meant that it gives me headache)
Sorry that it didn’t manage to soften my iron heart

oh ya....
Can i ask you a favor?

PLEASE, oh PLEASE
GIVE ME SOME AIR TO BREATH!!

Though you do make me feel needed, wanted and loved,
I think everything has it owns limit.

p.s. terima kasih kerana buat saya 'depressed', mr s. kamu mmg kawan yang baik.

nota kaki: kenape takde air lagi harini?
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good bye laling

maybe i will part with my beloved..
it's hard to say goodbye.
tp dia tu macam tak mengenang budi je.
tak tahan dah.
kadang2 rasa mcm nak lempang je dia.
suke sangat nak gigit orang tau.

dulu kan, dia cute je.


sekarang ni da tak comey dah.



besa sangat kan si evy the poison ivy nih?
ade kawan i yang sanggup nak bela dia.
tgh tunggu dia dtg ambil je.
kalau tak, kolam kat depan rusun ni ade.
boleh dia berbahagia dengan ikan- ikan kat situ, kan?

vertigo

I think the vertigo that always buzzing me is killing me softly.

I hate it when my world spins around and around…

My heart ache and my soul loathe my own self.

I always seek something that I thought could take my pain away.

But in the end,

I broke my fragile heart over and over again.