^Love^ Life^Hatred^

pic from here

they love me.
but life played a stupid trick on us and change it into a hatred. (is it life or live? forgive my bad english!)
i hate to have a friend like me too.
i am a very damn stubborn girl.
too desperate.
and always finds a way to make them mad at me.

as i look at their pictures, smiling, laughing happily together... i cry a lil bit.
i love my best friends... so much!!!!!!
i know why they are mad at me. i kept doing the same mistakes over and over again.
stupid me.
somebody should just throw me into the sea and leave me drowning....
S***! i am very very LOST!

my dear friends....
forgive me for being like this.
but i know saying 'sorry' is not enough.....

p.s. don't worry. i've promise myself i won't find you guys anymore if i was sad.
i know, i was the one who wants to play with the fire.
and you guys must be tired seeing me neglecting your words and then crying like s*** when everything is over.
but somehow, i can't stay away from the fire....
plus, i am an ugly duckling after all....