tears in my heart

looking outside the broken window,

my fragile heart feels so sorrow.

drops of rain should take the fire away,

but why i couldn't think the right way?

i'm lost in the maze of life, stranded in a deserted corner. 

I've always wish i could find a way out.

but alas, all i found is sadness. 

i wish i could stop the tears in my heart, just like i wipe the tears on my face.

i wish i could help my family, but all i do is just weary them out. 

this life is sickening, so excruciating, so unbearable. 

maybe i'm just too tired. or maybe i think too much. 

but the reality is there. 

the fact is the bitter truth i had to swallow. 

the problem is the real thing i had to face. 

and the hardest thing of all is that there's nothing i can do to help, 

except to pray that everything is gonna be OK.

dear ALLAH, please help us. 

please............

02.30pm, 

9 Jan 2010,

Labuang Baji Hospital.